I started the diet again...its my last load day..I'll do it this time.
SW: 217
Today isn't a good day. things just seem to be going really wrong...and I feel helpless.
I miss my children. I would give anything to see their little smiles again. I feel like I've had my heart ripped out, and I don't know how to fix it. I don't know what to do. I don't know where to go for help.
I just want to see them again. Even a picture would be wonderful.
Im really sorry to hear that. I have three girls, 11, 7 and 2. My first two are from a previous relationship that ended in disaster and I went through a long nasty custody battle and almost ended up in jail for defying court visitation orders. But it was worth it and I learned a lot from it. I dont know of your particular situation but if you need or want some advice just let me know. I can send you a private email. I feel for you hun and hang in there, okay. The best thing you can do right now is focus on yourself and making yourself stronger and healthier and then it will easier for things to fall into place. I know it sounds hard but you can do it.
ReplyDeleteLong story as short as I can: was in a toxic relationship for 9 years (married for 6) that I couldn't get out of so I went and had an affair (bad I know...) which kicked off the nastiest divorce and custody battle ever. He took my kids, I was homeless, jobless and broke. Then decided for extra measure to make up a bunch of lies and claim I was an unfit mother. He got the kids, I got stuck with some horrible visitation order that I can't adhere to because I don't have that kind of money...so I haven't seen my kids in almost 2 years...and it is killing me. I've struggled...and I can't imagine what's going through my babies' heads.
ReplyDeleteI don't know what to do.
Other than wake up everything morning....
Is there any way you can get legal aid and go back to court or find someone to take your case pro bono. What an asshole he is to do this to you -my heart breaks for you.
ReplyDeleteI had a lawyer (that cost me 4500...) and we went to court, he got my exhusband to commit purgery on the stand so we thought we had him...only to have the judge tell my lawyer to sit down and didn't let him call anyone else to the stand...and let my exhusbands lawyer and witnesses drag me through every ounce of mud there ever was.
ReplyDeleteI never wanted sole custody of my kids. I believe that they SHOULD have their dad in their lives. I just wanted to be a part of their lives too. I took care of them, I did everything for them...he did nothing but play computer games constantly.
And he abused my son physically.
But I'm the bad mom.
I have a 6 year old little girl that is my spitting image and an 8 year old boy that favors my dad, and i can't see them. I feel like its my fault, but I don't feel that it should have been taken this far.
I don't even know where to start to get help.
So is he in another state now. Is the visitation order still in effect. How much would it cost for you to go there...Family court judges can be real assholes. Most of them dont even read all of the briefs in front of them and just take a liking to whichever lawyer has a better rapport or a bigger mouth. Im not a lawyer yet - still have three years to go but if I lived in your state I would fight so hard for you all at no cost. I soknow what its like to go through this and the bullshit and the unbelievable tactics that happen in family court.
ReplyDeleteNo, we live in the same state, I just live 3 hours away. You can email me if you want, I just don't want to put anymore on here. Not because my exhusband and his new "wife" are reading, I've always known they read this blog and don't really care, but because its a bit more personal than I want on a public forum.
ReplyDeletei don't know how to help ... but I can pray for you.
ReplyDeletejeremiah 29:11 says "For I know the plans i have for you ... plans for GOOD and not for evil plans to give you a hope and a future"
Trisha... in those places where it says "you" .. put your name there read it like this :
"For I know the plans i have for TRISHA ... plans for GOOD and not for evil plans to give TRISHA a hope and a future"
God's got your back and so do I.