So our chihuahua is no longer with us. As much of a pain in the rear as that dog was, I have to admit I'm a little sad he's gone. Bryce liked playing with him, even if he was a schitzo dog. I think maybe a coyote got him.
Of course now Shane is asking me if he can bring home another Boxer pup that is the brother of the one he brought home before AS WE SPEAK.
I can say no, but I have the feeling I'm about to be vetoed. Sigh. He IS a really cute pup though...but he's gonna stay outside. (see, I realize I've already lost.) He just sent me a pic of the puppy with a sad face. Dammit...I guess we have another dog.
Sheesh.
On to other things...the wind is blowing so hard here that my entire house is creaking. That's the only thing I'm not liking about West Texas...the wind blows and kicks up every allergen known to man, plus a ton of red dirt. We had a pretty decent weekend, but I didn't get much of what I needed to accomplished. Shane had 2 disc golf tournaments that we went to. Bryce and I went because he needed the fresh air and out of this house, and its great exercise for me. 5 hours of pushing a stroller through grass, hills and dirt (one of the hills is bout straight up and down, another few almost as bad) My legs are definitely sore today.
(damn...we have a new dog.)
Im really wanting to redo my kitchen now. Have you seen those glass square tiles at the home improvement stores? I'm wanting to get a few sheets of those and do my backsplash and counters with them. I don't know anyone who has had experience with these (ie: how durable, easy install) but I'd like to have them. I had ceramic tile counters in one place I lived in and I loved them. The shine up so nicely and really make the kitchen look great. Maybe I'll find some pics and post em on here so you have an idea. I'm also trying to decide on some color ideas for the kitchen walls and cabinets. I'm really not a very good decor type person...My mom and my sister got that trait. (yes, I'm talking about you.)
The only room in my house that I'm actually proud of is Bryce's room, but it wasn't that difficult to do.
I did see a pretty cool idea for the bare wall above my stove though. This lady put up some really neat looking metal sheeting, then got some magnetic spice containers (decorative of course) and used that space to store them. It looked kinda neat, though I wonder how fresh your spices would stay, with the steam and such from the range top..? Ideas? Ideally, I'd like to get some more cabinets , as I have some walls that could use them.
So many ideas...so clueless how to do them..
I need one of those home renovation shows. You know the ones where the hunky handyman comes to your home, demolishes it (yummy workin men..) and then rebuilds it? I want one of those.
OUr house doesn't have central heat and air, so we have to have window units and propane heaters in the house. We finally were able to take the window units out (as it is no longer hot), but we have to get the propane tank refilled. Its a $200 minimum just to get them to come out. Soo, I'm going to have to readjust the budget again. (and he is bringing home a dog.)
I can't believe it is already November though. This entire year has flown by! A year ago today I was HUGE and pregnant, ready for Mr. Bryce to make his entrance. Now I'm sitting here watching him climb all over everything. Where did my baby go?! I blinked and everything changed. It kind of makes me sad, but at the same time I'm excited to see where things go from here. With all 3 of my kiddos, I loved taking care of them as infants, but there is just something about watching them grow and do things on their own that is so satisfying. As headstrong as they all 3 are lol! I remember David wanting to get into everything himself, needed to mess with the tv and vcr. It was fun watching him catch on so quickly...he knew how to work the electronics better than I did! Jenna Marie was the one that wanted to dress herself and pick her clothes out. But then again, she kinda had more fashion sense than I did at that point :) She was also the one that had a fascination with anything I was doing. She had to be doing it too. My little mini-me.
Bryce has just decided that he has to be the one to feed himself. Does NOT want my help, and will refuse to eat at all if I don't let him do it. He is headstrong....maybe the most out of the bunch. He's the one that wants to go everywhere, and doesn't mind taking out obstacles to do so. Baby gates don't hold him...and he's figuring out how to climb over anything else. I think he's gonna be my rough and tumble kid. David is a lover/thinker, Jenna is my diva princess, Bryce is my linebacker. In so many ways they are all so alike...but in so many other ways they are completely different.
And they are all growing up fast. And they are all alot like Me.
I spent a little bit of time looking back at where I was a couple of years ago. How different my life is now. Then...I was too busy looking for something, not paying much attention to where I already was. Now, I'm settled. I have family. I have goals. I truly am blessed. I don't drink anymore. Don't even really want to. I'm content with being fairly boring really..I don't mean that I don't enjoy going out with my husband to dinner or things of that nature, but it isn't like it used to be the first time around...I don't enjoy going to clubs, I don't enjoy getting drunk. I don't crave the attention I used to. I'm in a pretty good place honestly. Funny how 2 years will change you. I started thinking back about the guy I was with when my marriage ended. I still think about him now and then, but honestly I am glad that things didn't go anywhere. At one point I thought my life would end if he didn't call me to say good night...now I hope I never hear from him again. I don't hate him, or have any bad feelings towards him. In some sense he actually probably saved me. I just think that we both were bad for each other, and I'm glad it is over. It wasn't love for me. I thought it was. It was dependancy, because I had no clue how to live alone. I had no idea how to do anything. I had always been Mrs....I didn't know how to live my life without that.
My how a person can change in just 2 short years.
I guess I will close this up with something that I've been thinking of all morning.
" Lord, thank you for the blessings that you have given me, even when I don't realize how blessed I am sometimes. Thank you for pulling me out of the hell I put myself in, as stubborn as I have been. Give me the strength to continue getting better. Not only for my family, but for myself. Give me the patience to wait and see your way, instead of charging out trying to do it myself. We both know I can't do it by myself. Continue to have patience with me, because I still have moments where I think I know best. Most of all, keep all 3 of my babies safe and well, and let them know Mommy loves them.
In Jesus' name, Amen."
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